I wanted to go ahead and get started on sharing the process of our current adoption. I wanted to write something more noteworthy but I just got our girls and Cole to bed and am just now sitting to write. You will be getting both the emotional and the technical/ practical side of adoption through these entries. Here is the first emotional one:
The questions in the title are the ones that I daily have to answer for myself first. But this is really happening. The decision to go forward has been made. We’ve
responded to the God given inclination to life and love in this way, and we’ve started this race for these 2 precious boys, and we are not going to give up. But still I’m kind of in shock at this point. I have these moments where I think we’re in such a sweet spot with
responded to the God given inclination to life and love in this way, and we’ve started this race for these 2 precious boys, and we are not going to give up. But still I’m kind of in shock at this point. I have these moments where I think we’re in such a sweet spot with
our family….why shake it up?
And I think how will we have the space in our beings to encompass 2 more, who are adolescents at that and who speak very little English and have no formed faith, as far as we know? But then I think… what added joy and perspective and love they will be granting us just by being with us and letting us be their family. This is definitely God’s doing.
I know you’ve been there though where you feel like you’re operating at full capacity and can’t imagine one more thing to carry, but then when you have to, you do carry many more things and you’re rising above your circumstances and doubts and reluctancies and living that supernatural, abundant life where you’re just having an out of body experience. Well, lately as these out of body experiences get more frequent and closer together I’m thinking that maybe this is what the abundant life is…out of body (out of my limited vision, perspective and control) and into holiness (God’s unlimited vision, perspective and sovereignty).
So this is where we are right in the middle of this adoption process with all it’s hope, excitement, anticipation and doubts and reluctancies. But each day that we step higher and run closer towards these boys, the reluctancies lose ground to hope, excitement, and anticipation of what is good, true, and beautiful…making coheirs out of orphans, giving a home to the homeless, bringing light into darkness, bringing belonging to the unwanted, and welcoming new life and love into our world.
So that’s what we’re doing and the how and the why, and
YES! we’re adopting AGAIN!
…even if we’ll look like the Brady Bunch this time next year.
Good Night,
Amanda
Light Strung Studio 